Wednesday, August 10, 2011
At least, that is what Robin said. I am not offended - was funny. Ivy & I are in the process of bleaching our hair for wild color. I know many a parent/adult who will be shocked I am doing this w/ my almost 12 year old. But I gotta say, she is adorable as strawberry blond. I must say, it is MUCH easier bleaching her hair than my own. I don't have any pics of me yet & I would like to lighten it a bit more. I have had a wonderful day. It was productive, but nothing with the house, really need to clean/organize. Mostly the latter. I hope you are all blessed beyond your imagination. I love you all.
Monday, August 8, 2011
New International Version (NIV)
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
& to be not anxious:
Friday, August 5, 2011
Today is a cleaning day. We have been home a week & I still need to clean. It's icky. have just been so off kilter it has been easy to ignore. That is over. I am still out of it, but the house is overdo for a scrub down. The hard thing is though I am soooo tired. As is Peanut. Neither one of us slept well last night (she says she went to sleep at 1:30, Me - 4:55 am is last time I looked at clock.) woke at a bit before 9 today, so trying to stay up so as to not repeat the issue tonight. Ugh.
We are cat-sitting for friends while they are on leave & the animals seem to have finally adapted to each other. Now we have 4 crazy animals tearing around. too fun.
Well, I can't make sense of my thoughts & seem to be rambling, So I will leave you with a thought...
Thank you to GG for originally telling me this & Mtnguy on Forrest River Forums where I found it printed.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
I just started reading 365 Days of Thanking God: Cultivating a Heart of Everyday Thanks by Daniella Whyte.
As many of you know, I have all kinds of issues. But I am as always trying to work through my insecure mental weirdness. I am unfortunately often a negative person & depressed much of my life, but the real issues comes in that I KNOW it is a false feeling. It is wrong. So rather than beating myself up for being an ungrateful twit, I am in therapy & really have turned to God - though it is too easy to slip out of thinking of Him first.
An.y.how... Most of the things I need to do, (& not just me, beneficial for just about everyone in one way or another,) start off as forming habits. You get in a habit of something & it eventually will become 2nd nature. So I am starting my thankfulness project. I plan on posting here or on facebook (or if unable to get online, writing in my journal,) ONE thing everyday that I am thankful for & will try not to repeat myself.
The non-repeating is hard b/c when-ever I think of what I am thankful for there is a whole rush of stuff that ALWAYS comes to my mind...
- my kids
- my family
- my pets
- my home
- financial security
- the fact that we have all we need
- retirement is soon
- Rob is with me & not deployed (when applicable)
- I am saved through Christ
- We have Grace
- our health
and more, but that's the main ones. Would you like to join me in being thankful???
We got back from Idaho Friday. Rob's dad passed away unexpectedly. It was a horrid reason to go home. But it was so blessed to be there. It had been 15 years since we had been back there as a family. Rob had made it back before we moved to Germany, but not so with the rest of us. (I am fighting serious guilt that I didn't make more of an effort over the years to get us back there regularly one way or another. I can make things like that happen when I really but my mind to it, just didn't make enough effort. But I can't change the past, so just one more thing to add to my list to forgive myself for.)
Anyhow. It was beautiful & Rob has so much family. It's overwhelming, but in a good way. The viewing helped Rob (& I am sure others,) with closure & the service brought some tears & giggles to us, & the over-full chapel blessed the family to no end - showed how loved Ron was & the blessing he had been to others.
I dyed my hair black for the funeral - looks good. I learned a lot from this experience. One thing though. Rob & I have decided to set up as much as possible now, so when our time comes, it is one less thing for the family to have to fuss with as it is overwhelming when you are grieving to have to worry about piddly little things (such as wording of obituaries & making sure everyone is listed who needs to be. Or that they play the short version of Freebird rather than the one that never ends.) I have decided I want Ukulele music at my viewing & everyone to tell funny stories - focus on good. I want a room ringing with laughter. And I am right there with my mom, I think a coffee can is an awesome Urn as I just want my ashes planted with a tree. (Of course I need to wait & make sure they plant me w/ Rob as otherwise I'd just kill that plant as well. (I need Rob to cancel out my plant killing mojo.)
I always felt it was kind of morbid that my Grandma & Mom put so much thought & planning into their future deaths. Now I understand.
Love you guys & have a GREAT day.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Trying to show family around your hometown is like herding cats. Everyone is off in their own world. But that is ok - breathe in, breathe out, om..... I do love my town & my family so we deal. Unfortunately, the (younger) kids have school & their grades are such that they can't afford to miss a whole lot. & Robin has work & the play. At least the weather is being lovely. Right now I have a whole gob of pictures on Facebook, but until I get the ok from the folks they are set to family only. If for some reason you want to see the pics & it won't let you, please let me know & I will fix it. Love & God's blessing to you all ~ Heather
Friday, February 4, 2011
So clean house! Make a clean sweep of malice and pretense, envy and hurtful talk.
Peter continues on in verses 2 & 3:
You've had a taste of God. Now, like infants at the breast, drink deep of God's pure kindness. Then you'll grow up mature and whole in God.
I really like those verses. They speak to me. Every time I look at them I of course first think of cleaning my house. I love when I have a clean house. Not that I love cleaning, but I do so love when my house is clean. Cleaning is tedious & tiring & HARD WORK. But so are most things that are worthwhile. So I need to remember that when thinking *in whiny voice in my head* "It's too hard to change my ways." "What does it hurt to be envious or talk shit if I keep it to myself or just within my family & friends who know I just want to vent." "If I pretend to be a certain way with this group of people it just makes life easier." & so on. Well, it does hurt. It hurts me & my walk with God. It may influence other people to negativity. To live right is hard work & I know I will fail. But that is OK b/c God Loves me & forgives me for my failings. How Awesome is that?
Been learning my ukulele & trying to find ukulele music. Also am trying to listen to more Christian music. Need to surround myself with the things that will help me be the best person I can be. (And if you got any bands or songs you like, let me know.) Been trying to find a combination of ukulele Christian music. Talk about a niche market - HA! Hard to find but not impossible. Here's one I like, enjoy...
Peace & Love my peeps.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
|color to be added later|
|Me & Little Bit|
Friday, January 14, 2011
Last night my darling brought be roses & the sweetest card. For no reason. Just because. How awesome is that. And now we have a 4 day weekend together. (Ok, the kids have 3 days. But that's even better as it gives Rob & I time together.) So today we have plans. Racquetball, store browsing, bird feeding & none-ya ;)
So I need to finish my morning routines, including getting the dog walked, so we can have our time. I hope you all have a lovely weekend planned.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
1 Peter 3:8
Be agreeable, be sympathetic, be loving, be compassionate, be humble.
1 Peter 3:4
Be gentle & gracious.
1 Peter 3:1-4
Let me be an example to show my husband the wonder of walking with God. Don't push him, but draw him to a closer walk.
Not that I have been great. I am a sinner. I am working to improve myself. To find peace & happiness. I am getting there slowly but surely & I am sure will slip up, but will do my best to fight the evil & chase peace (1 Peter 3:11.)
I have been trying to think about my gifts. What I am good at. One that comes to me is being a caring/loving person. Taking care of others & trying to bless them.
It is hard to get to where you can focus on the good about yourself when you have spent most of your life hating who you are. I have been thinking - how insulting is that. I am amazed at Gods' capability to forgive us. For the amount of love. I am humbled & have begged forgiveness (& know I have been forgiven) for forgetting/ignoring/not believing how wonderful I am because I am a child of God. I am so thankful to be drawn back to church & to have joined PWOC. I will continue to work on me & get to be a better person all the time. I finally got to a place in my life where I can look for help & not think it's stupid or corny or fake. It amazes me that the older I get the more I realize how much of a child I have been all my life. Maybe I'll be a grown up when I turn 40?
More good reading recently: oldie but goodie..... "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" by John Gray. Really has made me reevaluate how Rob & I have been communicating (or more precisely NOT communicating.) Now I am trying to get the rest of the family to read it as I think it would help them all understand each other.
There was something else, a deep thought. A question I was pondering today while walking in the rain with the dog & now I have no clue. I am sure it will come to me tonight while trying to sleep, so for now I will just say adieu.
PS - we got a new kitty, her name is Little Bit
Saturday, January 1, 2011
- Keep going to my therapist(s)
- Go to church regularly
- Find ways to conquer obsessing over everything
- Read self-help books/articles
- Practice positivity
For my body, that is harder & I am loathe to say much as I am afraid I'll fail & then beat myself up about it, but I can confidently say:
- Exercise at least 2x's a week (not counting daily walks w/ dog)
- Lay off so much desserts/sweets
- Cut back on caffeine
So, I think those are pretty reasonable goals. I would love to hear yours.
PS - I also joined the 21 Day Organizing Challenge at A Bowl Full of Lemons, wanna join?
pps - I also am going to try & draw, paint or craft/be creative in some way daily (or at least every other day.)